And sometimes I look at the stars and wonder what they think of me? Am I as tiny as them to me?

I smile, not really

Hello again my white space

I gotta say I am extremely bad in explaining myself. My train of thoughts, they just flow so quickly back in my brain and fail to tag along the nerve to my mouth – Today I felt the pain of trying so hard to make someone understand your standpoint, but failed to do so. To make it even worst, I was dealing with someone that has a crazily good reasoning skill, like one of those top sales person in Wall Street. Sometimes till the end of the conversation I’ll then starting to doubt myself – Am I Wrong? To certain extent, I know I’m not but how can I put some (my) sense into others’ mind?!

I hate discussion, I hate arguments, because I’m the man who can’t speak.

and yet I have to suck it up and listen to your opinion – Objection objection objection! Can you hear, no listen, no Understand what I said? I’m trying my very best here to share my thoughts, seriously. Period

I guess I’m back

I’m glad the blog is still here.

Still my favorite place to write even though I’ve set up another website, which costs me extra bucks to get a (dot)com.

Looking back at my previous posts, it filled with dark thoughts and emotions. That was a year or two ago. I’m happy that it’s over!

I’m a happy person (slightly!) nowwwwwww and I wanted to write it here and shout it out LOUD!

I think my mum is awesome. I wish I tell her ‘I love her’ enough to make her realize that. The smile on her face when I gave those flowers to her is priceless, even though she did scolded me for wasting such money. Well mum, it’s just a small amount, you should see how much I spent on the clothes. 🙂

Happy Mother’s Day, I love you Mum. 

I think my mum is awesome. I wish

Little One, your only task is to know deeply in your soul—in that unshakable place that isn’t rattled by rejection and loss and ego—that you are worthy of interest.

If you can trust your worth in this way, you will be attractive in the most important sense of the word: you will attract a boy who is both capable of interest and who wants to spend his one life investing all of his interest in you.

One of my Facebook’s friends shared this piece of article earlier, and it immediately caught my attention. Well firstly because nowadays, it’s getting difficult to locate useful information from Facebook, judging that the news feed is flooded with all the insignificant junk. The article is written by a father to his Little One (daughter) and I was so touched by the content itself. The instant feedback I gave was ‘so much true in it’.

Little One, your only task is to know

Keep Me Busy

For once (after such a long time), I’m actually glad knowing that tomorrow’s Monday and there are lots of errands waiting for me to run and commit to. Yay to no Monday Blue.

I don’t seem to understand myself sometimes. But then again, I guess no one else does – to themselves.

There are certain points which I find contradict about myself:-

I rely a lot on others. Perhaps being the protected ones in the family makes me a weaker person. But I always wanted to be a strong character, thus there is a constant struggling between being who I am all this while and building who I wanted to be in the future.

I also love to be an adventurous-type, outgoing kind of person. But up till this moment, I have never hiked (the last time is probably when I was 16 or 17) and I have never jogged along the beach like I always wanted to.

I find it’s important to have your say, to have your own standing point. But at the same time, I am so easily confused by others – to the point that I don’t know what’s right/wrong, good/bad, true/false.

What the hell right?

Repost

I was by myself for a pretty long time. I needed to do that. I think everyone that I know has wanted to do that or needed to do that at some point. I think when you spend enough time when it’s quiet around you and you don’t open your mouth for three or four days, there’s part of your brain that can kind of rest. I think when we’re out in the world, and we have to talk to people, we edit ourselves. You know, we have to like, act a little bit. As honest as we may be as humans, when we’re out here, we’re all kind of wearing mirrors on our faces. You know, constantly reacting to how to react to the people around you. And I think when you’re alone for a long enough time, you can feel a lot more peace.

Love reading to Fashion Fever. They always have the best fashion, best photo, best music and the best quote.

Soon

I’m afraid that with no advice given to guide me, I’m soon a lost soul.

My brain is so exhausted to the point that if we’re having a zombie apocalypse, they wouldn’t want to eat my brain. Pathetic.

Feelin’ Good

photo (5)
It’s nothing, but it’s something to begin with.

You can certainly feel the difference by treating your body in a good way. It feels good waking up the next day feeling sore and pain after a good workout. Hopefully I’ll stick to my practice; Strong determination needed, but it helps when you have friend which shares the same goal and motivates you to hit the gym every day.

In a few days time it would be my first year in the company. It’s a good year overall, but deep down I know I needed a change. I’ve never an aggressive or ambitious type, but I’ve learnt to become one. Yes, it feels good to not work hard and have someone to fall back on, but doesn’t it feels better to be in charge of your own life without depending on others?

%d bloggers like this: